Change

Change is inevitable,
You can try to hide in the darkness to escape,
but it's happening right outside your window.
So let's tape sheets to them and hide.
Escape it all.
Turned on the Artificial Intelligence on my desk,
and there it was.
It seemed so artificial staring at me in the screen,
but it was the truth, and it was now.
I was living in the past, I was so foolish.
I believed those words you whispered to me,
it was all a fabrication.
I recognize all the same events in those pictures, all the EXACT same places, you look the same,
the only difference is the other one is not me.
To be frankly honest that makes me happy.
It's opened my eyes and given me certainty.
I just never knew, that was something you would do.
In fact you assured me it was impossible,
Foolish me.
no.
Foolish you.

Release Me

I just want to scream,
at the top of my lungs
blow the roof off,
tear the insides out.
there is a lack of understanding.
to you I can't explain,
what it is that brought me here.
Release me,
make me whole again.

21 Years

21 years.

You always hear "adults" telling you how growing up happens so fast,
and to enjoy childhood,
but you cant wait to drive, to drink, to fall in love, to make love, to live on your own,
to be on your own.
So we run through it all, to get to this stage.
They were right. time really flies.
21 years. It's kinda crazy.
Feels like yesterday I was driving my kids jeep,
down the street to ask my friends to play.
I want to make this my year,
my year to conquer my fears,
to live my dreams,
a year to make a change.
Here is a list of to-do's. I have one year! I will update my blog when I finish each thing =)

-Travel to Europe
-Go Sky Diving
-Truly help someone
-Launch a fashion line, just for fun =)
-Sing, even just in the shower.
-Dance a lot.
-Laugh a lot.
-Love a lot.
-Write a lot.
-Paint a window in my room.
-Do some crazy spontaneous things.

Infecting the Earth

The deer was left in pieces,
the right top of his torso laid on the right side of the road,
with his eyes still open staring into mine.
The left bottom torso laid on the left hand side of the road.
In the middle was his parts, and a puddle of blood.
Drove by in sadness and silence, as we watched the dismal scene.
All I wanted to do is scream.
We are a cancer on this earth,
top of the food chain
and the greatest earthly drain.
When will we realize we take to much,
that the greed is contagious and overpowering,
that life is worth so much more.
We are all so stupid and so insane, to continue the way we do.
The o-zone layer, the distinct animals, the melting ice caps.
In exchange for larger highways, more technology, anything taboo.
We are just waiting for this world to collapse.
We are powerful, and will destroy anything in our way,
it's unbearable to watch and leaves me with such a disarray.

Where did all the good people go?

Haunts Me.

I was digging through some old things, found this song I wrote and recorded about six years ago. It is a rough draft so excuse the mishaps.





The past is what makes you who you are today,
the memories and the experiences are what made you learn from your mistakes.
Never regret, never take any of it back.
Don't be ashamed, or bury those memories that haunt you.
Embrace them and thank them for making you stronger.


Yours Truly,
Huckleberry.

Spider

Fixed in this complex web, connected to so many
Stuck with memories I don't want to recollect
Some make me angry, sad, sore and make me want to forget
Flashbacks of these painful actions, faces and words
Countless and continual,
There is an emptiness that is not satisfied
because there is no answer to why.