21 Years

21 years.

You always hear "adults" telling you how growing up happens so fast,
and to enjoy childhood,
but you cant wait to drive, to drink, to fall in love, to make love, to live on your own,
to be on your own.
So we run through it all, to get to this stage.
They were right. time really flies.
21 years. It's kinda crazy.
Feels like yesterday I was driving my kids jeep,
down the street to ask my friends to play.
I want to make this my year,
my year to conquer my fears,
to live my dreams,
a year to make a change.
Here is a list of to-do's. I have one year! I will update my blog when I finish each thing =)

-Travel to Europe
-Go Sky Diving
-Truly help someone
-Launch a fashion line, just for fun =)
-Sing, even just in the shower.
-Dance a lot.
-Laugh a lot.
-Love a lot.
-Write a lot.
-Paint a window in my room.
-Do some crazy spontaneous things.

Infecting the Earth

The deer was left in pieces,
the right top of his torso laid on the right side of the road,
with his eyes still open staring into mine.
The left bottom torso laid on the left hand side of the road.
In the middle was his parts, and a puddle of blood.
Drove by in sadness and silence, as we watched the dismal scene.
All I wanted to do is scream.
We are a cancer on this earth,
top of the food chain
and the greatest earthly drain.
When will we realize we take to much,
that the greed is contagious and overpowering,
that life is worth so much more.
We are all so stupid and so insane, to continue the way we do.
The o-zone layer, the distinct animals, the melting ice caps.
In exchange for larger highways, more technology, anything taboo.
We are just waiting for this world to collapse.
We are powerful, and will destroy anything in our way,
it's unbearable to watch and leaves me with such a disarray.

Where did all the good people go?

Haunts Me.

I was digging through some old things, found this song I wrote and recorded about six years ago. It is a rough draft so excuse the mishaps.





The past is what makes you who you are today,
the memories and the experiences are what made you learn from your mistakes.
Never regret, never take any of it back.
Don't be ashamed, or bury those memories that haunt you.
Embrace them and thank them for making you stronger.


Yours Truly,
Huckleberry.

Spider

Fixed in this complex web, connected to so many
Stuck with memories I don't want to recollect
Some make me angry, sad, sore and make me want to forget
Flashbacks of these painful actions, faces and words
Countless and continual,
There is an emptiness that is not satisfied
because there is no answer to why.

Where did my body go?

The nights have always been long.
With music to my ears and dreams to my mind,
the inspirations were unending and life was understood.
The nights are still long, but they are no longer bearable.
The music is drowned out from to do lists and worries.
My bed is full of tossing and turning.
When did everything change?

Colourless

Colour me blue, sky blue.
Take me away, somewhere exotic
Anywhere, away from here.
Take me off this black and white page
Thoughts fill my head, too many dreams,
so many wishes, so many outcomes.
Roll the dice for me,
take a chance for me,
Pick me up and throw me,
Needing that push, to get there.
I can see all the colours, I've been dreaming them.
I just cannot feel them.
Feeling Colourless.