Spider

Fixed in this complex web, connected to so many
Stuck with memories I don't want to recollect
Some make me angry, sad, sore and make me want to forget
Flashbacks of these painful actions, faces and words
Countless and continual,
There is an emptiness that is not satisfied
because there is no answer to why.

Where did my body go?

The nights have always been long.
With music to my ears and dreams to my mind,
the inspirations were unending and life was understood.
The nights are still long, but they are no longer bearable.
The music is drowned out from to do lists and worries.
My bed is full of tossing and turning.
When did everything change?